Blogging after two years...................

                

                   I was really happy yesterday as i passed my blog i saw that my visitors reached the peak 15335 visitors in two years (it's 15386 today ) & knew that i first blogged in 29-April-208  i couldn't believe i felt so proud of my job .............it was a small idea i started as i passed some blogs but i loved it , i got in the mood & loved to write more as i found more readers as i shred my ideas in the International blog day i blogged again poverty & against climate change ..........................

                   Happy birthday my blog i promise to be more active this year to do what i promised to do from the first , to aware people about health care & help the healthcare system in my home town ...........i wish i can do soon...................

                 thanks again for passing by my blog it's a great pleasure for me

Misurata...........after 2 years

It was really a great chance for me to visit my granny's land in this special date 17/4 as my lovely grand died in the same day i felt as if it was whole a present for him ...........i went there as a part of our LIBYAN MEDICAL STUDENTS & YOUNG DOCTORS ASSOCIATION activities for the annual meeting it was really a nice conference in a clean simple city trying it's best to be in top , i loved the lovely smile in their faces i loved the smile in their senior Drs who were supporting them , it's really something we miss in Benghazi ,,,,,,,

from a step to a way

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thancks alllah those 6 months went quickly but i loved them alot they gave me a push a great hint about what's coming but every day is new that's the good point in it , i knew more ppl more drs more & more info & more about life ...................i dont know yet but i know that i love MEDICINE .... not that much i love surgery but i dont hate it ..............i knew that i've ti work more hard & to do my best to be one of the best..................just still 3 weeks separating me from a new a part of my study new subjects which i knew a little about ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,but sure i'll know 6 months back i thought now i was ignornat i knew nothing about many many things simply history taknig .................i'll never forgot our first day in kwaifia chest hospital when we all the whole group took one history form the patient ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,how mad we are ???? but we did really thanks Allah for this nice group we are with they are very polite & intaligent i'm really happy that i'm one of them ........................but now im looking for the coming the new part of this year i hope first that we do well in our next exams .........................................but really my mind is GROWING UP ......................that's what i can got now.............i'm really a different person since 10/10 /2009 & i hope we continue this nice growth ................................

i dont have to be like you

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 i WISH  u all a happy MAILOOD .............

I wanna to talk about something that's what really makes me nervous...........................humanity yeah it's ........................i must do something but i can't change people they are the way they are , but how can i if i were i  patient trust them while they are talking with me like that dealing with me like so , i'm a human i can say NO for NO & Yes when YES , this is my right............ but me as a smart DR ( I wish i can be one of those smart drs)  I can change your mind simply & easily but if you dont it's your right & i've to appreciate your right but still i've to do my job ....................................for sure alot of PPL  did understand these situations , i hate when drs exchange benifits with patients you let me do teaching i'll do your operation unless i'll put you for a far date operation ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,it's not a FISH MARKET

 ...............ok your a dr but you're not the end of the world ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,how you are asking why patients dont trust drs while your doing this staff you are playing with fire , & you are losing their trust.......................................really as a student don't blame me if i do it you are my teaher & i've to follow you  what do you think ????  we wont do it we'll be better than you we will break all that fences you are building with patients &i'll be the patient then i'll know how to convence him with attending teaching part ..........but still he'll decide ........................................i'm sorry i'm really not talking about all our lovely teacher who really we wish we can be like them one day but about those who're making the bad impression about Libyan DRS .............................................

I won’t say that this one is a bad person just by look again

…………….i was really impressed & I felt like that I’m so bad as I thought a bad thought about someone whom I don’t know ……….but now I really I wish I have a son who’s like him …………….i used to join the Out Patient Department in the evening it was really a good chance for me to see more cases & really know how to deal with patient & know how I should manage ………in that time I used to help the doctor as of course they all helped me a lot which’s something I won’t forget at all for them & I hope I can do something back for them, but let me be back to talk about that guy , he was in his 20s , smoker & talking in a loud voice nearly fighting with the security man so I asked him what’s the problem he told me that his mum is sick I told him OK , I got back to the OPD  to see his mum, she was in 60s old lady cant speak & cant move from her place , I went back to ask about whose with her talk about her problem , so I asked that young man what’s her problem he told me that she’s a patient of Alzheimer disease, & a CVA which stopped her from moving her place , & nearly global dysphasia , so I asked him again that I wanna the one who knows her drugs & taking care of her at least more familiar with her problem he told me Me  I said ok but who’s washing her feeding her that’s  whome I wanna he told me ME………..so I thought another bad thought she must be complaining of bed sores , so I asked him again  he said I’m sure she ‘s free………….so I asked what’s her problem .???? he told me I’m just worried about her I measured her BLOOD PRESSURE , TEMPRETURE , as daily & I found that she’s little hot so I seeked medical advice ……………………really al7amdolelah that she was OK,              & I’ll never forget that young man whom if I see him in the street I’ll say he’s bad boy smoker not in a good look but really I wish that I ‘ve a  son like him ………………..

               In fact I’ve stopped those thoughts about people just by look since then…………….People aren’t the way they look just the way they deal 

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my little lovely cousin Besha , joined nursery this year..................as i know him he loves football alot & specially AHLAY.....................the thing which made me post ,,,,,,,,,,,,,is his shock...............when he came back from school angry ...............we asked him why ??????????? he said we all love AHLY ..............how our flag isn't RED..................SO.........WE MUST BE NASAR  then.......................

........................ i love you BESHA ...........you are growing up

it's not easy ............after 2 years

it's th 8th of Januray a day meant nothing  for me until 2years back when i lost you my lovely grandmom..............i knew that you left but without staying with you in you r last days  ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,you cant believe that i m still angry that i didn't came that night to see you cuz u were ill but they told me that you can go tomorrow ,,,,,,,tomorrow came &didnt find you .............i didn't get into your house since then till last ramdan...........i could smell you in every corner in your house i could remmber you asking me to eat with you ,,,,,,,,,i could remember Eid time when i used to visit you the first but the eid came & lost one of it's most flavourous of course you , i can remember your great personality whom i used to , i love you grandy cuz you have given me my name ............you added alot for us all.............i can remember you every day in my words in which u added alot ,,,,in my acting  in every part of my life i can remmeber your lovely words whome you missed bcuz of ALZHEIMER my first enemy.........i can remmber your stories ...............you were very stricted with but on the other side you loved us alot but without telling us directly but you made alot for us that made us understand so ...................

i'll never forget & i wish to be like you a successful lady & to be like you want us ladies whome all ppl  respect & know  how to do the best ...................thax for inspiring us all that time ..................
 i love you

raby yarhamek w yaj3al mathwak al jana
you are always n our hearts

WE ARE GROWING UP

dear friends ...................our first step will start 2morrow when EMY , LOLO. SMAYA ...........will do their first clinical exam & we'll do in the following day ...............for us all it's more than new experience , even if we hear alot about did every thing  but we've to  be a part of ................it's our life & i hope that we wont be worried if we are like that we wont be able to concentrate & if we don't concentrate we wont do well with our patient whom we concern of the most ..........we've to do well at least to stop our first enemy  MS ..............so my dear friends don't' worry ( i wish i can do too)........even if drs were hard , may be tough with us ,,,,,,,,,but it's our life it's stressful & we've to face it ....................i wish u all the luk 2morrow girls & i wish the same for us too n the following day.............

How Can I (WEDA) Change.............???!! is that possible.........!

every one has own points of weakness, in which he tries to hide ,& others who who him self doesn't know them yet ................but how can i beat them........since this new year i tried my best not to show of my weakness side ,& even to appear stronger but i found my self in another new problem which i didn't know before whom i can share all that stress with & part of that stress can't be shared too........i found us(me&my best friends) sometimes chatting just about what happened to us in spite that we all attended the same stress but even though every one has her own point of view ..........but even that i was ok........as my exams are coming sooon i wish i can do well ...............I'll try not to cry ,,,,,I'll face the situation this time i think this is my weakness point which i'm really trying ti hide but i always fail to do .............may be this time i'll be more grown up i'll try to tolerate even if i can't but this is my new life which i must live .....I've to face even bad occasions with steady * no more tears at least this time.................

ENJOYING MEDICINE...............

SALAM EVERY ONE IT'S along time since i blogged fore the last time .......but here i'm back......as i got a completely different adventures after 3 months of studying medicine..........staying at hospital , dealibg with different people , nice situations & of course very sad ones ................but all that really changed alot in our personalities specially our new groub with my best friends ................
we visited different hospitals , dealt with different situations that made us think & see people who never met before in the positive & negative sides , knew diseases that i read about before but thought that was just exaggeration but sadly seen them live .........knew how can a SMALL NICE WORD change a life & help alot , ....................but on the other side i'll be examined soon & that's what i don't like ..........but any way ......i got a point ......................i get elder & my brain got more mature & knew that i've to be more responsile
in many days i felt like a broken & can't complete & see ppl suffering but it's life , i can change i can study well & stop more coming suffering ..............even those diseases whome i hate alot those days i'll change my mind i like them just to overcome them & decrease their incidence ....................
that was just a thought from a full brain , who can't talk